Christmas Time and New Year

As salamu alaikum :)

I really get lazy 2 write here, but thats simply cause NOTHING happens in my life.
Sad but True..

I feel so bored n fed up with my life these days.
There r so many things i wanna do and i simply cant cause i live at the end of the world.

Inline skating - ppl would look at me like am crazy here and well the streets where iam arent good 4 that..

going to the gym - theres just 1 gym near, its not really a good one. id also need someone 2 drive me there n take the baby 4 that time

There are also no shops around here, so shopping isnt an option, not 2 mention that i couldnt afford to go shopping all the time i feel bad :D

So 4 the new year am hoping to change location.
There r more things i wish and plan 4 but i guess since they arent sure its better 2 be quiet about them just now.

4 now iam just waiting that i can go 2 germany to stay there 4 some time and relax.
I really really need some time to think things over and decide what i want.

Now iam just mother, housewife, wife..
iam not satisfied with that..Not that i dont love my son, hes the light of my life.
I cant imagine 2 be without him ever again and he makes me smile when i wanna cry :)


Bad thing about it is i feel so damn guilt 4 thinking like this :(
I mean my life isnt bad, i have food, a place 2 stay, runnign water, electricity,...
Am i being greedy 2 want more?

Anyway i wish all of u a happy new year :)
Inshallah its gonna be a great one

Ramadan kareem :D

Its a lil late to say Ramadan Kareem i guess?
The last 10 days of it are about too end and i finally have some time on hand to write here :)
Still in cairo though i wish id be in germany but well life doesnt always go as we wish. So im waiting that allah will make it possible for us 3 to go germany to visit my family. I miss them so much it hurts, but it wont be too long inshallah ya rab!!!

The last weeks i tryd my best to use ramadan as much as possible. Last year i couldnt fast so this year i was able to fast alhamdulillah. It went pretty well for the first 20 days. the last few days i felt really thirsty the whole day but i take it as a test from allah to make me experience the feeling of the poor even more in the last 10 days. May allah help those ppl who have no water and no food!

Now that my baby boy doesnt demand to be carryd all the time anymore i decided to start to learn cooking. Well i can cook and am not bad in it but i wanna learn to cook more Recipes. It goes pretty well and my husband likes the stuff i cook ( well at least he says so :) I wish i had my family here to cook for them too. I just love to cook for ppl who r close to me.

Now its 4 or 5 days until eid and i still dont know what ill do. My mother in law isnt in egypt so we probably wont go to her house. But staying here wont be interesting too. Maybe we should go to the azhar park, i really love that place and havent been there for ages. I would love to spend eid with my mum, that would surely give her a good impression about islam. Well maybe next year, inshallah.
What r u doing on eid? leave a comment if u do anything special on eid, i need some ideas :)






This mosque has a great architecture. Ive never seen anything like that be4. Its in 6th october/cairo

hand crafts try number 1

The last time i have been doing hand crafts was in school, so thats a little time ago.
But actually i love doing it so i decided to start doing it again.
Specially i wanna stich some clothes for my cuty son :)
But my first project was a gift for someone. She just got a baby and i decided to give her something personal. I just hope she will like it cause i know its far from being perfect :S
Its my first try on this kind of hand crafts so its not that good, but still not bad i hope?
wait for more cause i just started and i got a new hobby :D


Ps: the little hand on the left corner is from rayyan trying to get into the pic :)
he loves it when anyone takes pics of him.

Exactly 6 weeks..

Now its only 6 weeks until i will be a mom
Thinking of this really scares me somehow :S
6 weeks is definetly not a long time anymore and im not ready. We still need to buy several necesarry things for the baby.
Aaaannnnd theres another problem *offff*
The dcotor to who iam always going is kinda far away from here.
We drive about 1,5 hours to him throught the cairo traffic.
So now he told us he wont come to us when im giving birth, i should come to him :S
So he thinks i will stay in a car for 1,5 hours while im in huge pain?
And what if we stuck in the traffic, ill get the baby in a car? :S

Now i have 3 possibilitys what i can do:

1. I will change the doctor and give birth in the hospital which is 2 min away from our house. I know they are not as good as my current doctor but we wil check on them to see if they are acceptable.

2. I move to our old flat which is in the familys villa.
Problem: The flat is empty ( no bed, no fridge, no nothing :S)


3. We move to a flat that belongs to my Family in law. Its in downtown and about 5 min away from my doctor. Sounds good but...
I dont feel comfortable to stay there cause i cant use the kitchen (2 dirty sorry)
And i use the bathroom only when its really necessary, so i wont be able to take showers a lot :S
I really dont wanna stay there cause i wont be able to clean and after all i wont be able to even make a coffee in the kitchen in the morning :(

Conclusion
I guess i will have to change the doctor, so i can at least stay in my own flat and after giving birth we wont habe to take a long way to be back home.
I just hope the hospital is good and the doctor here is trustable.
Still iam sad that i cant have my doctor there with me bcz hes really great and i trust him ( i dont trust a lot of doctors)
(if anyone want his number, just contact me :)

Inshallah there will be a good solution for us soon
This psychological stress just isnt good for me ( and there are more things that stress me) :S

Alexandria

On the 31.12.2008 i went from Cairo to Alexandria by Train.
Alhamdulillah i had a friend there who organised a flat for me.
Before i lived with my aupair family in Cairo/Gizeh but my time there was over and i wanted to stay a bit in egypt :)

The Travel to Alex wasnt 2 bad as i had a 1st class ticket for the train. The trains here arent so nice normally but i had luck i guess and they are way better than the microbusses.
(Microbusses are like the most dangerous thing after the tuck tuck here in egypt. They drive as fast as possible and have a lot of accidents)
When i reached in Alex my friend directly took me to the flat so i could sign the contract.
The flat had 2 bedrooms, was furnitured and located in miyami which is a good place 2 be as a foreigner. I didnt expect that the place where i live would be this good connected 2 malls and even internet cafes. Alhamdulillah it was really a blessing.

I stayed in Alex about 3 months, from which i stayed only 1 month in this flat and then moved 2 another one cause in the first one was no hot water and no washing machine which was quite annoying sometimes.Another thing that was really annoying me in that flat, and also in the next one was that i didnt get a key for the main door. That meant i ahd 2 wait til the doorman opend the door in the morning n i had 2 be home before he locked it up at night.
Alhamdulillah the doorman in my 2nd flat, mustafa, was opening quite early and locking up at night not 2 early. he was in generell a very nice person and so was his family ( though they didnt understood english at all :)

This flat wasnt as nice as the other one when it comes 2 the furniture but it had the necessary hot water and was simply safer for me.
In the time that i stayed there i spend a lot of time at the beach and i just got 2 love it.
It was winter time, so there havent been much people at the beach. Still there have been some male individuals who obviously love 2 pester females.
They just keep following u n trying 2 talk 2 u.
I made the mistake 2 answer them by saying "emshi" ( go away) or other stuff ( dont really remember) which didnt made them go away. Now i know that i shouldnt have answered them, my husband informed me that "any" answer will show them that u r intrested. You should just not answer and not look at them 2 show them u dont want any contact 2 them.

The rest of the time i used 2 study arabic, wether alone or with my friend who acted as my arabic teacher :)
In that time i learned 2 read and write arabic, which helps me now a lot.
Mostly we met in a cafe and studyd there. My favourite cafe is the Moonlight which is located in the beginning in the 45 Street in Miyami ( Maybe that helps any of u :D)
I really enjoyed this time without much responsebilitys. The money for the flat and my lifestyle came from my father.
( he still pays some money 2 me which he should have paid wheni was a kid)

After this time in Alex i longed to live in egypt again but for longer time and with a real job.
So when i left 2 germany i had the plan 2 come back and work here :)
Obviously plans dont always work the way u want, as iam here and but dont work.
But alhamdulillah i came to the place i wanted and even got married.
But i wish 2 visit alex again, as i miss the sea and the nice air there.
My family in law has a house there, so maybe we gonna go there some time :)
I hope so, and until than i can still watch the pics of my time in alex.

Life goes on..

Do u know when u feel like its over?
Like u cant go on?
Well life always goes on
At least thats my experience :)
I felt like that several times since i came 2 egypt but life always goes on
After bad times, good times come around, alhamdulillah.
I had many arguments with my husband, sometimes about stupid little things and sometimes about really important things.
And though sometimes i felt like its over n i have 2 leave, iam still here :)
Marriage is a lot harder than i thought, its a whole lot of work!

I know that arguments will happen again n that bad times may come around, but i pray that we will stay strong and stay 2gether, inshallah.
A big issue we had ( still have) is that i want 2 go out and he doesnt.
Its not like i wanna go out every day and 2 special places.
I just wanna go once or twice a week 2 a cafe near our house ( quite cheap, alhamdulillah)
Just 2 get out and not stay home all the time.
But my husband loves 2 stay home, hes a real couch potatoe :)
We both still need 2 work on ourselfs and work on our marriage, inshallah.

2day he accepted 2 go n buy some stuff from Abu Zekry ( a food shop)
so we went there and bought some food we needed aaannnndd
Chocolate for me :)
I found a new sweet 2 satisfy my sweets addiction
Its called PAPITA
and its a mix of chocolate, milk cream and cookie
Its really cheap with the price of 1.30 eg pound which is less than half euro!
(Galaxy coasts about 4 pound in same size)

Thats it :D

A Walk to remember..

Since i decided to be more active and not sit in the house all day, depending on my husband, i feel much better.
2day i took a walk 2 discover my neighbourhood.
The most intresting thing for me are the street cats :D
I love them and i wish i could just sit down and pet them. But as am pregnant i stay a bit away from them. When iam not pregnant anymore i will for sure do it again, though i would only do it if no one see me cause the egyptian don t understand if u r nice 2 street cats.
While i was walking i passed by some shops n decided 2 by onion.
Wrong decision!
The guy who sold the vegetables was very local and i discovered my arabic isnt good enough 2 understand him :S
I told him " ayza wahid kilo basil" ( i want 1 kilo onion)
What i forgot is that onion means basal n not basil, so he didnt understood me until i showed him what i wanted. He asked me if iam syrian cause i didnt understood most of what he said :D
Actually i felt really embarrased that i wasnt able 2 communicate with him :(
When i lived in alex i was able 2 buy vegetables and the shopkeeper understood me always. But he wasnt that local i guess.
Conclusion: Study more arabic..especially the pronounciation!
Alhamdulillah buying some chipsy in another shop went well and i understood the shopkeeper. But that wasnt hard anyway as i just asked "bekam?" ( how much does it coast)
and his answer "setta wo noss" ( 6,5) wasnt hard 2 understand either, alhamdulillah :)


A bit blurry but the way he ( or she?) is looking me was just worth a pic

Dogs are haram..

But that doesnt mean we can treat them bad!
There is even a hadith which states a woman ( prostitute) who gave water 2 a thirsty dog wnet 2 heaven for her deed. And a woman who mistrested a cat went 2 hell!

We had a dog at my in laws home.
She was there for security and 2 keep the rats away.
Now some time ago she got babys, but sadly only 2 of 5 survived :(
I blame my husbands brother as he was to take care of them but he didnt really care!
The dog was staying on the roof which was like a huge terasse and she could go down into the garden at any time she liked. The little ones stayed at the roof as they were 2 small 2 go down the stairs.

But now someone seemed 2 have poisend them :(
My husbands brother called us some days ago that the dogs died and they were throwing up blood before that :(
I dont get why he didnt get the vet who is having his place not far from the house.
Arent the dogs worth to get help from us?
I know that if we have been there my husband would have done anything 2 save them, as he loved that dog so much.
We actually wanted 2 take one of the babys to our place but we dont have so much place and my husband had doubts so we didnt do it.
I wish we had, cause it would be still alive :(


These are some pictures of them, dont they look so sweet and innocent?
How could anyone harm them???

Some thoughts on Egypt - Part 1

Since most people who read my Blog arent egyptians, i thought u might be intrested in the real Egypt :)
I realised fast that living in Egypt shows u different sides of egypt than if u only visit it. Same for the case if ur a muslim or not, its just a big difference.

When i first came here in september 2008 i directly had 2 be very independent and find out things by myself. Fortunatly people didnt always recognize am not egyptian as i dress just like them and as long as i dont speak they mostly think iam egyptian and so they treat me like that.

One thing i found out very very fast is that woman arent supposed 2 be outside at night alone. Now i dont mean a time like 2 am cause that wouldnt be so good elsewhere 2 ( though it wouldnt be so dangerous).
But its better not 2 go out without a male after about 10pm. After 12am its really getting strange if u are out without a male and believe me u wont feel so comfortable.
There are some places where this rules are not working like in citystars ( a big mall in nasr city).
But in generell i would advice u 2 avoid going out after 10pm alone.
I dared 2 go stay out until 12 am one night in alexandria cause i was waiting for a friend of me and this friend just came late bcz of transportation. And i felt like all males watching me very strange. Alhamdulillah iam a muslim and i was wearing hijab and abaya and iam sure this kept the guys from harassing me.
Its the culture here that a woman that hangs out on the street alone at that time cant be a good one, bcz the good girls stay home with their familys or go out with their husbands. So if u are out alone its shows u r not protected and maybe u even looking 2 meet guys..

Another thing that doesnt really exist in europe ( at least in germany) are cafes only for males. Mostly they are really simple shops where they just serve coffee and tea (and shisha of course).They are never fancy shops with nice decoration and special drinks, its just a simple place where the man meet and drink tea together.
If u as a woman go and sit there they will watch u in a strange way :)
I know it bcz i did it out of not knowing. But actually i wasnt alone, my arabic teacher took me there and later he told me that this cafe normally is just 4 males and that we gonna study in another cafe next time ( he was just 20 and obviously hadnt experience about cafes).
Now since i married i realise it more than before how much egyptians care for this.
Like if we go 2 a cafe and there are sitting only males, than my husband insists 2 go 2 another cafe. Not if its a cafe like cilentro, beanos or any cafe like that.
But im talking about the local ones, where u pay 2 pund for a tea and u mostly sit outside on wooden chairs :)
So if u plan 2 go out with girls only choose a cafe where already girls are sitting and better avoid 2 much empty cafes cause it might be a really bad one.

Ill think of more later as iam going 2 drink qahwa with my husband now :)

Baby shopping

I was frustrated so when my husband left 4 work 2day ( weve been arguing), so i decided 2 go 2 the shop near our house.
Its just 2 min walk 2 there alhamdulillah
It a really small shop with some baby clothes, housewear, and a little bit of normal clothes for outside ( shirts,..)
I already knew what i wanna buy be4 i went there :D
I saw it the last time and we didnt bought it bcz its for baby from 6 - 9 months,
so its a bit big.
But its so cute and cheap that i decided 2 buy it 2day.
I payd 24 pound which is about 3,5 euro i think. Thats really cheap, in germany i would have payd at least 10 - 15 euro for it bcz its new and from disney :)

I made ticker for this Blog 2, about my pregnancy cause i tend 2 4get which week iam in *shame* the ticker is in the sidebar 2 but 2 make it easier, here it is =


And this is the pic of my shopping result 2day :)

Egypt is getting hot

Since 2 or 3 days the temperature here is going up
Its like a hot german summer :D
Suddenly it turned from maybe 20 grad at daytime to 30
I wanted it 2 be a bit warmer bcz i was freezing 2 much but now its so warm i wish i could wear a shirt and miniskirt at home ( cant bcz we still with brothers in law)
Last year at this time it wasnt like this at all.
i was in Alex last year and it was raining and soo cold. I remember how i wear training suit, abaya and a jacket when i went outside in the evening.
And now, 1 year later in cairo its the total opposite.
Is this the global warming?

I already scare the summer here when it starts like this just in february, how it gonna be in june or july?
And ill have still a baby belly in june, i think that will be suffering time 4 me :S
Inshallah it wont get 2 hot, so that i have 2 stay home all day near the air conditioner

Back in Egypt

So am back in egypt :)
The journey was better than going there but still not great.
After spending new years night with my mum n uncle i went 2 bed at 1 am just 2 get up again at 5am 2 get ready.
At 6am my uncle came back 2 drive me 2 the airport ( 180km).
My flight from hamburg 2 prague was from 9.15 am until 10.40 am
When we reached parg the pilot gave us the information that we have no permission 2 land there and we have 2 wait 4 further information..not very nice 2 hear this when u r in a plane.
When the plane finally went down we all could see what was the problem.
It was so foggy that u couldnt even see the lights of the tower.
Alhamdulillah the pilot was great and got us down without any problems, but it still was scary.
After the flight i heard that some ppl in the plane even prayed bcz they were so scared:S

After that i had 2 stay at the airport until 9.40pm when my flight took of to cairo.
It just started 2 snow when the plane took off :)
Alhamdulillah i arrived cairo at 2.30am and needed about 20 min 2 get through the checks
The really opend my bag :S
The guy even asked me 2 lift my 19kg bag up so he could open it, but i clearly told him i cant lift it up!
Anyway after the normal rude behaviour of the airport stuff i finally got to go back home :)

pancakes in masr

I doubt that egyptians know pancakes, at least i never saw them here at all
I have 2 admit i never made pancakes be4 ( at least not sucessfully), i always let my mum do i 4 me :)
But i googled a recipe 4 them 2day and alhamdulillah it worked out. Tastes even same as my mums pancake.
Anyway was just a test if it works so ill make them another day 4 my huby and family in law inshallah
So yummy i ate 2of them right now 4 lunch ( n breakfast cause i left it)

rat on the roof :S

2day was quite boring day, i went 2 sleep late last night so i got up at about 11 am.
The only things i did after waking up is eating break fast, washing clothes, some cleaning n cooking.
And going up on the roof ....Bad idea
I just went there to get some sun and fresh air. usually i dont go there bcz its never been finished so its full of sand and looks ugly up there..and because my husband told me there r animals and i should take the dog with me when i go up.
Well the dog has been sleeping somewhere so i went alone.

I just had 2 see the pigeons who r set in a tiny cottage( u call it like this?) up there.
I wonder why we have them as no one cares 4 them n no one needs them
Anyway when i looked in the cottage i saw a huge rat climbing up the wall :S
It was disgusting, i can tell u..
I think from now on ill be realy more carefull 2 close the windows at night so they cant come in.
Still we didint got the stuff that protect the windows,everywhere ( how u call it that keeps flies n so on out?)

Now am waiting 4 my husband 2 come home so we can go 2 get our stuff from somewhere else and than come back..will be a 2 hour drive there n back 2 hours :S