a song..

When i was pregnant in the last month i remembered this song
i didnt had internet though so i wasnt ale 2 download it or even listen it
Now that i have net again i searched for it on youtube and listen it every day :)
It in german but i translated it 2 english
This song could make me cry everytime bcz it remembers me of the time befoe the birth and bcz its just so sweet from the singer 2 write a song like that for his unborn child



Translation:



This shining in her eyes
i havent ever seen be4
shes shining from inside out
From there where u still live

since i know about ur arrival
im waiting for a new time
my world turned upside down
cause 1 + 1 = 3

the world that awaits u
isnt as it should be - no
but this still has time, donte be scared
u can really try ( thats just literally translated)

4 hand full of love cuddle u
and i swear to u, ur mother is a great woman

when u arrive
when u see the light
and that 4 the first time ever

when she sees u
when u see me
than i belive wonders wil come true

we stand with u, we two
we stand with u, from 2 make 3

u are the greatest adventure
u just missed til now
she carrys u full of proud
in her wonderfull belly

just feel comfortable in ur skin
entrusted to ur mother
ur world still stays small
and ur little sould stays pure

that something could go wrong
sure, that scares us somehow
but whatever will be
im wih u
and ur mother will gt u out of any trouble

when u arrive
when u see light
and all of that for the very first time

when she sees u
when u see me
i belive wonders will come true

we stand with u. we two
we stand with u

i cant help u until now
i cant see u
i can just think of u a lot
and u can hear me sing

when u arrive
when u see light
and all of that for the very first time

when she sees u
when u see me
i belive wonders will come true

we stand with u, we two

Exactly 6 weeks..

Now its only 6 weeks until i will be a mom
Thinking of this really scares me somehow :S
6 weeks is definetly not a long time anymore and im not ready. We still need to buy several necesarry things for the baby.
Aaaannnnd theres another problem *offff*
The dcotor to who iam always going is kinda far away from here.
We drive about 1,5 hours to him throught the cairo traffic.
So now he told us he wont come to us when im giving birth, i should come to him :S
So he thinks i will stay in a car for 1,5 hours while im in huge pain?
And what if we stuck in the traffic, ill get the baby in a car? :S

Now i have 3 possibilitys what i can do:

1. I will change the doctor and give birth in the hospital which is 2 min away from our house. I know they are not as good as my current doctor but we wil check on them to see if they are acceptable.

2. I move to our old flat which is in the familys villa.
Problem: The flat is empty ( no bed, no fridge, no nothing :S)


3. We move to a flat that belongs to my Family in law. Its in downtown and about 5 min away from my doctor. Sounds good but...
I dont feel comfortable to stay there cause i cant use the kitchen (2 dirty sorry)
And i use the bathroom only when its really necessary, so i wont be able to take showers a lot :S
I really dont wanna stay there cause i wont be able to clean and after all i wont be able to even make a coffee in the kitchen in the morning :(

Conclusion
I guess i will have to change the doctor, so i can at least stay in my own flat and after giving birth we wont habe to take a long way to be back home.
I just hope the hospital is good and the doctor here is trustable.
Still iam sad that i cant have my doctor there with me bcz hes really great and i trust him ( i dont trust a lot of doctors)
(if anyone want his number, just contact me :)

Inshallah there will be a good solution for us soon
This psychological stress just isnt good for me ( and there are more things that stress me) :S

baby shopping again

A few days ago i went to Carrefour (after begging my husband :D)
And these days they have so many cute Babyclothes, i could just buy all of them .
But i had 2 keep myself so i bought just 3 items.
I just love the baby clothes from Disney they are super cute :)
Inshallah i will buy another 3 of the babybodys soon and than i have nearly everything ill need for the baby. Only the bed is missing, but thats my husbands buisness 2 bring it.

The Clothes with the Bee atracted me since longer time and i finally decided 2 buy them.
I think they will be looking so cute on my little baby boy :)

I nearly bought a pink babybody 2 but i decided it would be bad if people ask me if our son is a girl :S
My husband though would have bought it bcz i told him i love the colour :)

Im a bit sad that my family in law doesnt show much of intrest but im sure it will change whenthe baby is born,inshallah :)
My mother on the other side seems to already go shopping for the baby :D
She always asks me what i still need and she will bring it when she comes to visit.

We also finally got pretty sure about a name alhamdulillah
Its 99% sure that his name will be Fares :)
My husband and me liked that name when we first got to know that iam pregnant.
And i think as it was our first thought, maybe it was the right one.
Well i think we will finally decide when we see him for the first time:)




This are the things i bought for him

Being pregnant

Iam now pregnant 28 weeks and its getting really annoying :)
Not that i dont love my baby and iam happy 2 have him but the side effects are really making me tired.
Recently my stomach got so big, its scary :S
I just avoid watching myself in the mirror as i see myself just looking fat n not atractive at all.
Im dreaming about the time when i can again do sports
go running
go skating
go riding
walk a long time without panting :)
sleep as i like without someone kicking me if he doesnt like the position :)
when i dont have this cravings anymore ( sugar,sugar,sugar..i want it all the time)

I simple miss 2 see myself as a woman and to wear nice clothes.
When i see those lovly clthes i was able 2 wear be4 the pregnancy i could cry :S
But inshallah i will work hard after it 2 get into them again.
And i cant wait 2 hold my baby in my arms :)



2 all the mothers out there: How much weigth did u gain in pregnancy?

Am feeling sick :S

I guess i ate something wrong last night
I cant say what it was since i ate a lot of different things :)
But i guess it was the milk-rice which my mother in law brought with her ( from a shop)
Since the morning i feel pain in my stomach and i just wanna sleep.
It doesnt made it better that i didnt get sleep all night. We just stayed up til about 7am and after it when we tryd 2 sleep a annoying fly woke me up every 5 min.
So im kinda exhausted and feel sick
Which really sucks as its friday and i waited all week 4 this day since my husband promised we will go 2 a big mall
I desperatyly need some clothes 2 wear at home since my stomach just got bigger and my old clothes dont fit anymore :(

I cant believe am now pregnanct since about 27 weeks.
Its not 2 much time left til the baby will be born and i dont really feel ready.
There are still things we need 2 buy. BUt 2 be honest i cant wait that my body is mine again.I feel absolutly unatractive and i feel like a old woman when i move slowly out of the bed..

Alahmdulillah 4 everything

Pregnancy in Islam

Am quite bored at the moment since my husband works on some papers and i got nothing 2 do i was searching in google about pregnancy in Islam. I didnt find much of intresing information. But i like this link http://www.shariahprogram.ca/women-islam/virtues-of-pregnancy.shtml

And this is what it says there:

· When a woman is pregnant with a child, all the angels will make Istighfar (repentance) on her behalf. Allah SWT will, for each day of her pregnancy, write for her 1000 good deeds and erase from her 1000 bad deeds.

· When a pregnant woman starts to feel the pain from contractions, Allah SWT will write in her records as someone who is doing jihad (spiritual or physical struggle) in His path.

· When a woman becomes pregnant by her husband and he is pleased with her, she obtains the reward of a person engaging in fasting for Allah SWT and a person spending the night in ibaadah (worship).

· A woman from the time of pregnancy until childbirth and weaning the baby, is like the Mujahid (someone fighting in the path of Allah, swa) who is stationed on the frontiers of the Islamic land. If she dies during this period, she dies the death of a shahid (martyr).

· Two raka'at salaat performed by a pregnant woman is better than 80 raka'at salaat performed by a non-pregnant woman.

· A woman who is pregnant gets the reward of fasting during the day and of doing ibaadah (worship) during the nights.

· A woman who gives birth gets the reward of 70 years of salaat (prayer) and fasting. For each vein that feels pain, Allah SWT gives her the reward of one accepted hajj (Pilgrimage to Makkah).

· If the woman dies within 40 days of giving birth, she will die as a shahid (matyr).

(Hadith)......."A woman that dies in her virginity or during her pregnancy or at the time of birth or thereafter (in nifaas) will attain the rank of a martyr"

Nabi(salalaallahu alayhi wassallam) is reported to have also said ".......When her labour pains commence, the inhabitants of the earth and the sky are unaware of the stores of comfort that are prepared for her. When she delivers and breast feeds her child, then she will be granted a reword for every gulp of milk, if she had to remain awake during the night for the sake of the child, she will receive the reword of emancipating seventy slaves in the path of Allah Ta'ala. O Salaamat! Do you know who these women are? They are pious, upright, with a delicate nature yet obedient to their husbands and not ungrateful to them"



[Source: Madrasa In'aamiyyah]