wahshteny awi ya ummi ( i miss u so much my mother)

Ya mama i miss u so much 2day

I wish i could just sit with u and talk 2 u about anything like we used 2 do.
I wish i could tell u about all my problems and get a hug from u. I wanna tell u all the things i cant tell u bcz i dont want u 2 worry about me. I need ur advice ya mama. What would u do if u were in my place?
I feel lonly without u, bcz u r the only person in this world who loves me unconditional!

I know we havent been this close always and u dont know how happy iam that we are able 2 hug each other now and talk like friends, something we couldnt do when i was younger.
Its so sad that we are so far from each other just now when our connection became better n better.
I know i havent been a good daughter always, i made u so much problems when i was a teenager and i mad ur life so hard. Im truly sorry for it and i wish i could make it up 2 u. Now i will be a mother myself soon, i just wish u were here with me and help me with all those little things that u know better than me.

Its breaking my heart that i cant be near u and take care of u, give u that little presents i used 2 bring u and cook for u. U dont know how hard it was for me 2 leave when i see u still struggle with ur injury. I swear if u were here i would do anything 2 make life easier for u, just as tryd when i was there after ur accident.
I just want u 2 be as happy as possible, and i wish u wil be happy even iam far from u.
I wish for u that u will find a lot of new people that u can spend ur time with, that u find something that makes u really happy, maybe find love.
U deserve it more than anyone else that i know, bcz u always give and do everything for the people around u while never asking for anything back.
I truly dont know a person that is as strong and loving as u are.

Bahbek Mama
I love u...Ich hab dich lieb mama

A Walk to remember..

Since i decided to be more active and not sit in the house all day, depending on my husband, i feel much better.
2day i took a walk 2 discover my neighbourhood.
The most intresting thing for me are the street cats :D
I love them and i wish i could just sit down and pet them. But as am pregnant i stay a bit away from them. When iam not pregnant anymore i will for sure do it again, though i would only do it if no one see me cause the egyptian don t understand if u r nice 2 street cats.
While i was walking i passed by some shops n decided 2 by onion.
Wrong decision!
The guy who sold the vegetables was very local and i discovered my arabic isnt good enough 2 understand him :S
I told him " ayza wahid kilo basil" ( i want 1 kilo onion)
What i forgot is that onion means basal n not basil, so he didnt understood me until i showed him what i wanted. He asked me if iam syrian cause i didnt understood most of what he said :D
Actually i felt really embarrased that i wasnt able 2 communicate with him :(
When i lived in alex i was able 2 buy vegetables and the shopkeeper understood me always. But he wasnt that local i guess.
Conclusion: Study more arabic..especially the pronounciation!
Alhamdulillah buying some chipsy in another shop went well and i understood the shopkeeper. But that wasnt hard anyway as i just asked "bekam?" ( how much does it coast)
and his answer "setta wo noss" ( 6,5) wasnt hard 2 understand either, alhamdulillah :)


A bit blurry but the way he ( or she?) is looking me was just worth a pic

Dogs are haram..

But that doesnt mean we can treat them bad!
There is even a hadith which states a woman ( prostitute) who gave water 2 a thirsty dog wnet 2 heaven for her deed. And a woman who mistrested a cat went 2 hell!

We had a dog at my in laws home.
She was there for security and 2 keep the rats away.
Now some time ago she got babys, but sadly only 2 of 5 survived :(
I blame my husbands brother as he was to take care of them but he didnt really care!
The dog was staying on the roof which was like a huge terasse and she could go down into the garden at any time she liked. The little ones stayed at the roof as they were 2 small 2 go down the stairs.

But now someone seemed 2 have poisend them :(
My husbands brother called us some days ago that the dogs died and they were throwing up blood before that :(
I dont get why he didnt get the vet who is having his place not far from the house.
Arent the dogs worth to get help from us?
I know that if we have been there my husband would have done anything 2 save them, as he loved that dog so much.
We actually wanted 2 take one of the babys to our place but we dont have so much place and my husband had doubts so we didnt do it.
I wish we had, cause it would be still alive :(


These are some pictures of them, dont they look so sweet and innocent?
How could anyone harm them???

Strange habbits?

Do u have any strange habbits?
Strange annoying or just different habbits?
I actually figured out that i got a few of them :D

Like i HAVE to clean the diashes ( and everything else) right after eating. I cant let them stand around, even if its just for a short time. It just makes me feel uncomfortable when they stand there in the kicthen and i have to think how hard it will be to clean them later.

Another habbit that has 2 do with food 2, is that i cant let any pot open ( with food inside of course).
I always have 2 cover them. Though there are no bugs in my house( alhamdulillah) i still feel anything could fal into the food if i leave it uncovered.
And it absolutly drives me crazy when my husband eats from it and than leave them uncovered *grrr*

I tend 2 write lists for everything. Absolutly everything :)
I write lists for shopping, for my daily dutys, for my goals, for things we will need in the future, for some money calculations ( which is unnecessary),...
I just love 2 sort things and writingit down help me with that.
My husband thinks thats bcz iam german..well might be :D

Iam sure there is more but i just cant think of more now, maybe i should ask my husband :)

Mistress of Spices - Movie

MBC Persia was shwoing the movie mistress of spices last night, though i couldnt see the whole movie cause it was simply 2 late n i needed to sleep (about 3 am)i liked it. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWps7RYW2m8 ) Beware this movie has some scenes which we muslims not supposed 2 watch so just ignore them and close ur eyes :)
I have been reading the book before which is from my all time favourite writer Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni. Its not my favourite book from her but still a good one.
Like usually the book is better than the movie but the movie wasnt so bad and it made me wanna go 2 any spices Bazar 2 spend a little fortune on spices :)
(Inshallah i will go 2 a spices shop soon 2 get some spices i havent been able 2 get here til now like mustard seeds).
I have been in pakistan before and ever since i love to cook with indian spices, they just have such a richness of spices which make cooking real fun.
My husband uses 2 say he hates indian food ( justr like he dislikes india), but when i cook it for him he liked the food. Propably cause i never tell him that its inidan food ;)
Something i do regulary and which i really adore is indian chai.
Here in Egypt chai is simply black tea, but in india and pakistan chai has another meaning, its black tea with milk and spices and its really lovly.
When i was on diet before this was my swet treat every day :D
Now here is how 2 do it:

1. Boil some water and add black tea( not the tea bags if possibl). If u are very unsure about the amount than just atke 1 cup of water.
When it boils and the tea has a nice dark colour than add some milk.
The colour should be light brown after ading the milk, so dont add 2 much or 2 less.
The colour should be like in the picture below.



2. Now crash some cardamom seeds ( i take mostly 2 or 3) and add them to the tea.
Add some cinnamon powder ( or fresh cinnamon stick) and a tiny peace of ginger ( fresh or dryd)

3. Now let the mix cook for some time, when it boils turn the heat low and let it simmer for a little bit (maybe 2 min, this isnt necessary but maked the taste much better)

4. Add sugar and than sieve it into a cup.
And enjoy it :)

Now some about the lovly spices used in this drink.
Lets start with cinnamon, which we all know and love in our sweets.
And that the health benefits:

Cinnamon has been reported to have remarkable pharmacological effects in the treatment of Type 2 diabetes mellitus and insulin resistance.
Cinnamon has traditionally been used to treat toothache and fight bad breath and its regular use is believed to stave off common cold and aid digestion.



Cardamom
I just adore this spice, its one of my favourite and i love it in coffee, sweets and chai of course.
Health benefits:

Its used to treat infections in teeth and gums, to prevent and treat throat troubles, congestion of the lungs and pulmonary tuberculosis, inflammation of eyelids and also digestive disorders. It also is used to break up kidney stones and gall stones, and was reportedly used as an antidote for both snake and scorpion venom.



Ginger
I normally use this one i main dishes, in the beginning i didnt like dthe taste, but i got used 2 it and now i like it :)
health benefits:
Ginger has been found effective in multiple studies for treating nausea caused by seasickness, morning sickness and chemotherapy.
And Ginger may have blood thinning and cholesterol lowering properties that may make it useful for treating heart disease.
In Arabic, ginger is called zanjabil and in some parts of the Middle East ginger powder is used as a spice for coffee ( not in my coffee though).

My first driving lesson

2day i had my very first driving lesson (with 22 years *shame*)
Actually my husband teached me and i wasnt that bad at all :)
I think i did pretty well cause i needed only about 15 min 2 learn how 2 start the car and how 2 drive in the 2nd and 3rd gear.
It was kinda scary though cause it was after maghrib so it was dark, but alhamdulillah the place we were at was empty and there was only 1 more car which was a young guy learning 2 drive by his father, and he did better than me :S (I keep telling myself it wasnt his first time!)
I didnt thought i would handle driving so well, but yeah it was just driving on a safe place, am still scared from the street with all those crazy egyptian driver.
Inshallah i can learn soon 2 park and 2 drive on the street so i can use the car when my husband is at work and i can go shopping on my own *yeah*

2 all of u Jummah mubarak :)

Being pregnant

Iam now pregnant 28 weeks and its getting really annoying :)
Not that i dont love my baby and iam happy 2 have him but the side effects are really making me tired.
Recently my stomach got so big, its scary :S
I just avoid watching myself in the mirror as i see myself just looking fat n not atractive at all.
Im dreaming about the time when i can again do sports
go running
go skating
go riding
walk a long time without panting :)
sleep as i like without someone kicking me if he doesnt like the position :)
when i dont have this cravings anymore ( sugar,sugar,sugar..i want it all the time)

I simple miss 2 see myself as a woman and to wear nice clothes.
When i see those lovly clthes i was able 2 wear be4 the pregnancy i could cry :S
But inshallah i will work hard after it 2 get into them again.
And i cant wait 2 hold my baby in my arms :)



2 all the mothers out there: How much weigth did u gain in pregnancy?