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Sunday, August 29, 2010

Fun facts - things u can know but dont need to

The Nails of a human grow in his/her life 28 meter.

Anthropologists havent found a folk where children dont play hide n seek.

I france its forbidden to call a pig napoleon.

The lighter has been invented before the matches.

There isnt excisting a sea or a river in whole saudi arabia.

The Spanish Inquisition once condemned the entire Netherlands to death for heresy

One in 10 male guinea pigs is considered to be gay.

The shortest war ever took only 38 minutes. He led in 1896 between Britain and Zanzibar. The war began at 9 clock in the morning.

The female octopus is up to two feet tall and ten kilograms, the males, however is only 3 inches and it weighs a quarter gram. The male doesnt survive the mating.

The suicide rate among psychiatrists is twice as high as for their patients.

Chocolate contains three times as much iron as spinach

due to unnecessary hard copies in Germany every year 500 000 trees to be felled. One in three prints out his e-mails to read them

Only two cities in the world live more than Turks in Berlin: in Istanbul and Ankara.

When cows eat too many carrots, their milk turns pink

A four year-old asks about 400 questions a day.

Man are spending 140 days of their life shaving themselves.

While sleeping we turn around more than 10 times per hour.

A human loses skin cells in the course of his life with a total weight of 20 kilograms

Im Jahr 2006 sind 2,1 Millionen Menschen nur deshalb umgezogen, weil die Nachbarn zu laut waren.

Three-color cats are almost always female.

In New York are more Italians than in Rome, more Irishmen than in Dublin and more blacks than any other city in the world.

Viagra helps to keep cut flowers longer fresh.

1471 in Basel a cock got accused. Allegedly, he had - the natural laws spite -laid an egg. As a "devil in disguise," he was burned at the stake

In ancient Egypt pregnabcys were prevented by crocodile dung

Every human is crying in his life as a bathtub full.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Fear?

I recently got scared like hell from a spider so i thought im gonna share with u what iam scared of
Anyone who read this and like 2 share what she/he is scared of, let me when u post it on ur blog ( im curious :D)

Ok am scared of:

1. Spiders :S
I just saw a spider sitting on the bed sheet that i hang outside 2 dry.
It was white with black spots n had a fly inits mouth :S
Im scared of spiders anyway, even not as much as i used 2, but this one just freaked me out.
Im kinda scared it might be poisonous :(


2. swimming in the Ocean
Im even scared of swimming in the north sea simply bcz i cant see whats below me.
I know its stupid 2 be scared bcz its safe there but still in my mind i think about sharks n other creatures who could be below me :S
I love 2 swimm, but i prefer a swimming pool :)

3. loosing a family memeber
I think this dont need an explanation :S

4. high places
i was much more scared of it n it got better.
But still i prefer 2 stay on the ground :D

5.To waste my Life
it sounds strange i know
Buty iam scared 2 waste my Life not doing the things that make me happy
Right now i stay home all time and i feel pretty useless, except for the part of taking care of Rayyan.
But am not only a mother iam still myself and a woman.
I wana reach my goals i wanna be creative, i wanna do new things, i wanna meet new ppl..
I just hope i can do a little more of this soon.. inshallah

So what r u scared of?

Thursday, August 19, 2010

sooo sad

Iam soo sad bcz my mum was supposed 2 come 2day and she couldnt :(
1 day before she should come the doctor found out she has Shingles.
Its not dangerous for her or me but it would have been for Rayyan.
So we decided she cant come and she might come after 4 weeks when she cant infect Rayyan anymore.
Still iam sad bcz i could use her support and help so much right now. I Miss her and my whole family so much :S
So inshallah we will fly 2 germany all 2gether on christmas.
I just hope it will work out cause we still need to get a german passport for Rayyan and german offices are slow..really slow

So since my mum didnt come theres nothing new in my life.
Rayyan is growing n growing :)
His smile makes me more happy than anything ever could, hes just a real joy ( when he wants 2 :D)

The last day i spend google ( googeling? googling?) for ppl from my past.
Ppl i was in school with and ppl who used 2 be close friends.
Its really interesting how some of them changed.
The most interesting was my frist Love :D
Well ok it wasnt love cause we were about 5 or 6 years old and just liked each other.
He was half marrocan and we played 2gether all the time. I havent sen him since we left primary school.I didnt contact him but it wasnice 2 see how hes dong and looks like now thx 2 facebook :)

Do u ever search for ppl like that with which u have no contact anymore but who used 2 be important 2 u? Its realy fun i can tell u :)

Monday, August 16, 2010

this is me


thats me
awake since 3am n no sleep in sight :S

Sunday, August 15, 2010

cleaning cleaning cleaning

First: Ramadan Kareem
I hope all of u are having a great ramadan and the fasting isnt 2 hard on u.
I was fastong the first 2 days until i recognized my milk supply got less and i got sick :(
But inshallah i will fast some more days though i dont think i will fast all the left days as i need days where i dont fast so i will have enough milk 4 Rayyan :)

In 4 days my mother is coming and so iam busy all the time cleaning 4 her arrival.
Iam so nervous and i want everything to be perfect.
So i spend hours on cleaning the walls in the bathroom, cleaning the cooking place, the fridge and actually the whole house :D
2morrow ill clean under the couch :P
I have a list what i still have 2 do be4 my mum arrives and it includes:
- cleaning the walls and doors ( from the blood of the mosquitos my husband hunted :D)
- cleaning the guest room
- washing the bed sheets
- cleaning the windows
- cleaning the floors

So i still got a lot 2 do and it isnt so easy 2 do all that while i feel soo bad from a cold.
I get a cold 3- 5 times a year and when i get it than really bad.
Not sleeping more than 5 hours a night doesnt help either i guess.
But when my mum is here inshallah i can take some rest when she takes Rayyan :)
Im soo glad shes coming and especially in Ramadan.
I pray that Allah will open her heart and let her become a muslim that would so great.
But ill see how she reacts on Ramadan in a muslim country :)

So its 1.40am here and i have 2 finish cleaning the kitchen be4 i will go 2 get a little sleep.
Have a nice Ramadan and may Allah protect u all :D

Saturday, August 7, 2010

iam tired :)

These days im pretty much tired all the time :)
Rayyan just keeps changing his sleeping rhythym all he time and i cant follow up. Last night my lovly boy just slept 2 hours from 1 am until 3 am after that he decided sleeping is boring and he stayed awake until 11.30am. I managed to get a little sleep now but still iam tired as if i have never slept :S
Rayyan on the other hand is sleeping like an angel now, lets see 4 how long :D

I cant belive its been 2 months since hes born and my life has changed so much. We got more used 2 not sleep much and 2 always think of Rayyan first be4 we think of what we want ( with we i mean me n my husband :)
Alahmdulillah Rayyan is doing a lot better than in the first 5 weeks where he was keeping us stressed with his colics a lot.
Ok enough about that cause iam sure his colics are not the most interesting topic for anyone else than me :)

My mother is finaly coming 2 us on the 19 of august and i cant wait to see her again after 8 long months. She will se Rayyan and my husband for the first time and i wish everything will go well inshallah.
Since Rayyan is born, or to be true since i was in the 8th month i miss my family muchmore than be4. I miss the places where i grow up and i wish that Rayyan could go and see these amazing places and meet all of my family some day.
On the 4th september there is a family meeting and iam so sad i cant go there :S
Its the first time that my family arranged something like that and though not all family memebers are coming iam sue it would be so much fun 2 attend it.
Ar ur family doing family meetings just 2 see each other once in a year or so?
I think its a great idea and i will keep it in mind for the time hen my child/ren are grown up :)

I think iam making way 2 much pictures of my son. My husband already complains that it takes too much space onthe laptop. But what can i do, i just cant help myself :P
Hes growing so fast and i wanna keep it as memorys.

Friday, July 23, 2010

My Family

My son is now over 5 weeks old and my father ( + his family) dont know about his existence :(
I i dint talked to my dad since i turned 18. We just exchnged christmas and birthday cards and i wrote him several letters 2 which i never got an answer.
Now i feel guilty that i didnt tell them about my Son and i know i have to tell them sooner or later.
But how do i do this?
I wrote him a letter which i didnt send til now bcz i feel its missing so many things.
I i wrote all the things i wanna tell him i would need like 10 pages.
I wish he had an email account so i could easily write him and send him pictures of Rayyan, but he doesnt use the internet at all :(
So i have the choice to give the letters 2 my mum and she will send them or i will send them when i go germany (hopefully on christmas)
i wish i could meet him around christmas so he could meet his grandson.
My mother will see her grandson for the first time this august and i cant wait to have her here :)
I just have 2 believe the relationship betwen my dad n me will be repaired.
I long for this since longer time and i tryd my best by writing him letters about how my life is going ( though i didnt mention iam a muslim) but sadly he never replyd. Even my granddad and my uncle couldnt explain why he didnt answer me. I guess its about his "lovly gf" who definetly dont want me back in his life, taking her precious time with him..
But Rayyan might open a door for us 2 get back to the connection we had before, inshallah.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

a song..

When i was pregnant in the last month i remembered this song
i didnt had internet though so i wasnt ale 2 download it or even listen it
Now that i have net again i searched for it on youtube and listen it every day :)
It in german but i translated it 2 english
This song could make me cry everytime bcz it remembers me of the time befoe the birth and bcz its just so sweet from the singer 2 write a song like that for his unborn child



Translation:



This shining in her eyes
i havent ever seen be4
shes shining from inside out
From there where u still live

since i know about ur arrival
im waiting for a new time
my world turned upside down
cause 1 + 1 = 3

the world that awaits u
isnt as it should be - no
but this still has time, donte be scared
u can really try ( thats just literally translated)

4 hand full of love cuddle u
and i swear to u, ur mother is a great woman

when u arrive
when u see the light
and that 4 the first time ever

when she sees u
when u see me
than i belive wonders wil come true

we stand with u, we two
we stand with u, from 2 make 3

u are the greatest adventure
u just missed til now
she carrys u full of proud
in her wonderfull belly

just feel comfortable in ur skin
entrusted to ur mother
ur world still stays small
and ur little sould stays pure

that something could go wrong
sure, that scares us somehow
but whatever will be
im wih u
and ur mother will gt u out of any trouble

when u arrive
when u see light
and all of that for the very first time

when she sees u
when u see me
i belive wonders will come true

we stand with u. we two
we stand with u

i cant help u until now
i cant see u
i can just think of u a lot
and u can hear me sing

when u arrive
when u see light
and all of that for the very first time

when she sees u
when u see me
i belive wonders will come true

we stand with u, we two

Life with a new born baby

2day is the birthday of my husband ( just random :P)

Now my son is 3 weeks n 2days old and slowly we get more and more used 2 each other.
Hes not the easiest baby but it gets better.
He screams a lot and only calm when i breastfeed him, so literally i breastfed him all day long. Alhamdulillah he sleeps at night some hours, so i can take some rest.
I guess its bcz i stopped giving him any kind of bottle milk and my milk has 2 adjust to his need now.
I dont really get to do housework and cooking as the baby wants to be on my arm all day.
If i lay him down on the bed ( no matter if its his bed or ours) he starts to cry and just stops when i take him up and feed him :S
So i spend a lot of time holding him in my arms, which is nice some times and sometimes really making me tired.
The best is when he smiles at me or when he looks into my eyes while feeding :)
Sure there are moments where i could just cry and wish someone would take him for just 1 hour so i could do something i want, like taking a loong shower, cooking or cleaning.
Somehow i cant wait that he gets a bit older so i could play some more with him instead of just holding him :)


So literally my whole life turns around the baby right now :)



Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Introduce you to my baby boy :D

Long time since i had the chance to use the laptop and iam sooo glad to have it back ( net addict :P)
The last few weeks a lot happend, the biggest of it the birth of my son on the 14.6.10 :)

On the 13.6.10 i went to my family inlaws flat in downtown which is about 1,5 hours drive from here.
I planned to stay there til the birth.
Actually my birth was to be on the 13.6 but since i didnt had any contractions we didnt went there earlier.
So in the night of the 13.6 we went there and also right away to my check up at the doctor and he did something 2 make me have contractions ( no details, but it wasnt a nice feeling!)
After that i had contractions coming every 7 min for the whole night :S
At 11am we had a appointment in the hospital with my doctor for another check up and to see the hospital.
Since i had contractions i stayed there right away and we got room ( we means me, husband and mother in law)
In the afternnon the contractions got so painfull that i got an epidural which was the best thing ever :)
Finally i could relax a bit and it didnt hurt at all to take the epidual ( thx doctor fadl :)
At around 10pm they finally decided i can go to the birthroom ( alone without my husband)
Alhamdulillah my doctor and his assistent were great and supporting me soo much that i felt very comfortable :)
The birth itself wasnt so hard bcz of the epidural.
The only bad thing was the episiotomy, i didnt feel it when it was done but after the epidural stopped working i suffered a lot.
The first week after birth i suffered a lot of pain all the time, while sitting, laying and walking :(
Alhamdulillah its fine now and i dont feel any pain at all :)

My baby had some breathing problems at first so he had to stay in the hospital for 2 days :(
I went home after 1 day and i missed him so much.
Alhamdulillah hes fine now.

The first 2 weeks home with him werent so great cause we stayed at the in laws house.
That means 3 rooms from which only 2 have AC, for somtimes 6 adults and 3 kids.
Anyway i cant change thier attitude...so whatever iam home now alhamdulillah

My little one is doing fine and finally sleeping more so that we can take more rest 2 :)
Hes growing every day and he already started to smile :)

Saturday, June 5, 2010

my big family

My family is quite unusal for germans :)
My mother has 4 brothers and 7 sisiters which means she has 11 siblings.
I dont know anyone from germany who has a huge family like this, most people i know dont have more than 4 aunts/ uncles.
My father also has just 1 brother which is much more normal in germany.
Germans in generell dont get enough kids thats why they speculate that in some generations muslims gonna be the majority in germany (i have to say inshallah :D)
Having such a huge family could be great if everything was alright. Sadly in my family we dont have contact with everyone. Stil i have some great uncles and aunts on who i can trust in any situatin ( alhamdulillah)
Having such a big family didnt had much of influence on me when i was younger, but now that ill be a mother soon i think about this topic much more.
I wish my child would have contact to my family too, at least when iam in german for visits.
I already worry about how 2 establish a good contact with them and how to make him meet my father.
I dont have contact to my father since iam 18 except for birthday cards and me writing letter( that he doesnt answer :S)
But i certainly want him to have contact to my dad and 2 meet him.
The problem is my fathers girlfriend.
She is with him since many years and i never came along with her very well.
She was jealous about me too much and so did anything to make me stay away.
Now i dont care about her as long as hes happy with her, but i dont want her 2 see my son.
Why?
Bcz iam scared of the evil eye.
Might sound funny, but i do believe in it!
I believe that if i let my son stay near her for longer time her jealousy and hate might give him something like bad luck.
So i have to work out a way to meet my dad without her, which is nearly impossible cause she doesnt let him go anywhere alone ( psycho :P)

I guess im just getting worried now that the brith is sooo near :S
Inshallah all will be solved out once hes born.


Does anyone of u have such a huge family and how u cope with it if u live in another country?

This video is so great, mashallah
and it gives me hope :)

( my cat just starred at the laptop and listend very interested when the azhan in that video played, mashallah :)

Monday, May 31, 2010

Soon ill be a mum :)

Now its just 13 days left if the baby comes on time :)
13 days is less than 2 weeks, i cant believe time went by so fast
The baby could come now at any time, what a scary thought :S
But inshallah he wont come before the 13.6
Still we are not 100% sure of the name and we still have to get a baby bed :S
Im getting really curious about the hospital and i hope we can go to check it this week.
I have never been in a hospital here in egypt and my impression of them isnt very good.
I heard a lot of bad storys,but i after all egyptian woman get their babys there, so why shouldnt i?
Alhamdulillah i have a good doctor who i trust :)
Now ill have to make some exercise in the last 2 weeks. I have to admit i have been a bit lazy about this til now :S
But my mum told me if i make exercise the birth will be much easier for me, so inshallah i will try this.
I wish i could go swimming but i guess ill have to stick with walking and some simple yoga.
I dont really have any other ideas of which exercise to do.

The cat ( still nameless :) already got really used to stay with us and is really a source of joy


Sunday, May 30, 2010

A little creature in the house :)

No its not the baby :D
Hes still where he should be and inshallah he wont be born before the due date ( 13.6)

But since last night we have a little kitten in the house :)
She was staying at the street in front of the house for long time, crying from hunger.
So after some time we took her in the house and fed her.
Shes very active and naughty :)
All day long shes haunting whatever comes her way ( carpet, my bag, hijabs,..)
I planned to buy a sherazi cat after having the baby but i guess we gonna keep this one.
After all i cant throw her out on the street, shes too young to take care of herself.
I guess shes about 3 or 4 weeks old, after all shes very tiny.
Now i just need to choose a name for her :)
Maybe ill call her tiny bcz of her size

This is her


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

A few Blogs i love

These days are just hot here in Egypt. The temperature suddenly raised above 40C (105F).
So since we got no Ac in our Flat we went to my in-laws villa where we have a flat with AC. Unfortunatly thats all that is in the Flat ( no Fridge, kitchen, closet,..)
But we can use the kitchen and fridge down in the Flat of my in laws or in the Flat next to us which belongs to my brother in law :)
Still i miss my kitchen as i found a lot of nice recipes that i wanna try and i cant do that here.

Anyway, my Life is pretty boring these days:)
Bcz of the heat i stay inside the flat all day long and cant do much :)
So im gonna present u some BLogs that i follow and which are my favourites.

I gotta start with a Book Blog
Its called the Jacaranda Secret and its from Angela O'Brien.
I really enjoy reading the chapters of the book and i always wait for the next one :)
http://angesbook.blogspot.com/

A Blog i just found 2day is about cooking :)
It has some really delicious recipes which i will definetly try soon.
http://annies-eats.com/

This one is really nice to read too.
I love the way the sister is writing and always making me smile :)
http://texaninuae.blogspot.com/

I love this Blog, especially the last post i support 100%.
I love it bcz i can see myself in the posts.
http://baby-express.blogspot.com/

There are many more that i like and follow, but it would take too long to mention them all here right now :)

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Some pics of Obour

I just went to take a walk
* Its sooo hot outside when u wear hijab and abaya :)*

I made some nice pics of the landscape behind our house.













Exactly 6 weeks..

Now its only 6 weeks until i will be a mom
Thinking of this really scares me somehow :S
6 weeks is definetly not a long time anymore and im not ready. We still need to buy several necesarry things for the baby.
Aaaannnnd theres another problem *offff*
The dcotor to who iam always going is kinda far away from here.
We drive about 1,5 hours to him throught the cairo traffic.
So now he told us he wont come to us when im giving birth, i should come to him :S
So he thinks i will stay in a car for 1,5 hours while im in huge pain?
And what if we stuck in the traffic, ill get the baby in a car? :S

Now i have 3 possibilitys what i can do:

1. I will change the doctor and give birth in the hospital which is 2 min away from our house. I know they are not as good as my current doctor but we wil check on them to see if they are acceptable.

2. I move to our old flat which is in the familys villa.
Problem: The flat is empty ( no bed, no fridge, no nothing :S)


3. We move to a flat that belongs to my Family in law. Its in downtown and about 5 min away from my doctor. Sounds good but...
I dont feel comfortable to stay there cause i cant use the kitchen (2 dirty sorry)
And i use the bathroom only when its really necessary, so i wont be able to take showers a lot :S
I really dont wanna stay there cause i wont be able to clean and after all i wont be able to even make a coffee in the kitchen in the morning :(

Conclusion
I guess i will have to change the doctor, so i can at least stay in my own flat and after giving birth we wont habe to take a long way to be back home.
I just hope the hospital is good and the doctor here is trustable.
Still iam sad that i cant have my doctor there with me bcz hes really great and i trust him ( i dont trust a lot of doctors)
(if anyone want his number, just contact me :)

Inshallah there will be a good solution for us soon
This psychological stress just isnt good for me ( and there are more things that stress me) :S


Saturday, May 1, 2010

A Mouse in the House

Some days ago when i wnt in the kitchen and turned on the light i saw something small n black running from underneath the table to the stove.
My first thought was its a roach but when i showed my husband how big it was he was sure its a mouse ( or rat :S)
Thats absolutly the last thing i need, a rat in my house.

But it turned out to be helpfull for me in some way :D
I begged my husband to buy a cat since long time and now that we have/had a mouse he said that we gonna buy a cat soon.
I hope he wont change his mind again about this. It would be great to have a pet in the house, i asked for that since the day that we married.
Cats are my favourite animals and i tryd to get my husband to buy one for so long, but he always said we should buy it after the baby is born.
Now inshallah we gonna buy one soon as a cat is tsill more acceptable for him than a mouse :)

Monday, April 26, 2010

Shopping while pregnant

Normally i love shopping ( especially baby clothes at the moment)
But right now going 2 buy clothes 4 myself is more like a nightmare.
Not only that i feel iam walking like a duck, i also see all those wonderfull clothes that are not fitting me anymore :S
I think im just tired of being pregnant, and alhamdulillah its just 7 weeks left.
Now when i go out i get tired very fast and im not so much intrested anymore to spend much time on looking at things for the flat or for the baby bcz it makes me exhausted.
When i went out on friday to buy something 2 wear i had real problems 2 find anything at all that would fit me.
I could buy trousers which are specially for pregnant, but they arent really islamic as they r tight and i dont like them much.
So i was looking for a maxi-dress, over which i could just wear a loose shirt to cover my arms.
Alhamdulillah after a long search i found one for 150 egyptian pound :)
I was also intrested to buy a butterfly-abaya, but my husband didnt liked the idea.
He said i look like a pigeon when i wear it :S
Well so now i just need 1 more abaya to wear in the pregnancy and than i think it should be ok for the next 7 weeks. I just have 2 dresses and 1 abaya at the moment to go out with.
I dont really feel attractive anymore with that big belly and always wearing the same clothes :S
I miss to wear nice clothes at home and skirts outside the home so i just pray that i will get in shape fast after the pregnancy, inshallah.

Yesterday i finally got to the doctor for the check up. First he checked my blood pressure and he checked it several times cause it was so low.
Than he made the ultrasound and honestly i dont really reconized much on the monitor.
When i finally thought i recognized the babys face and hands from the side, the doctor told us it was the face which was looking in the direction of the ultrasound.My husband too cant figure out what he sees on the ultrasound :)
Unfortunatly he wasnt able to get me a good picture of thebaby head ( i had asked him for one to send it to my father). But inshallah next time i will get a good picture, if the baby lays in a good position.
The doctor also checked my weight.
I gained 13 kg until now :(
This sounds too much for me, but he didnt commented much about it, so i guess its not too bad.
After all im happy the baby is fine and everything is going ok. Now i will have to make a blood test soon to see if everyhing is ok with the blood sugar and the iron in my body. Ima pretty scared of taking blood, its one of my biggest fears. But the laboratory here is really good and the take blood without hurting much, alhamdulillah. I guess i will make the test soon and i will have to fast about 6 hours before it. But that wont be too hard for me i think.
In any wayi thank Allah for giving me such a good going pregnancy.

Now 7 weeks left, i should prepare for giving birth, but i dont think about it too much bcz it scares me to think of it :)
It will come out anyway, so i think no need to worry so much about what COULD happen.
I believe in my strength, that all woman have when it comes to this topic, at least if u trust in Allah and in urself.
Inshallah everything will go fine and i just need to finish shopping the things that are still needed, so we be ready for our Son :)

May Allah bless all the pregnant woman out there who are going through hard times and having difficult pregnancys.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Things i use every day

I guess i have too much free time these days :)
So i was thinking what i use every day that makes my days look like same?
And i realized there r not so many things that i use every single day.
These are what i could think of

Nescafe with Milk
I love it and drink it every day
Though only 1 - 2 cups while iam pregnant.
I just need Nescfae in the morning to make me happy :)



Lux Soap
I love this soap, it smells so good
Mostly i use the peachy one, its smells great
And as i have 2 make wudhu up to 5 times a day i use this soap a lot .



The prayer rug and Hijab
I use them every day for the prayer and i love my prayer rug.
I got it as a present when i was in Alex and i took it with me to germany, uk and now back to where its produced. Though the person who gave it to me bought it in saudia, so this prayer rug traveld a lot :)



My Mobile
These days i call my husband about 2 times a day to check on him as he comes home so late.
I also use it to note our shopping list and other things that just come to my mind ( things we need, quotes i suddenkly remember, songs i wanna remember).
I have a samsung corby and iam really happy with it. Its much easier to handle than the samsung omnia that my husband has ( i could never handle that one)
I also use it 2 take pictures or just 2 play :)




Make Up
I use mascara and eyeliner every day.
Not all day long but i use it before my husband comes home :)
Just trying to look good for my husband.
I actually use more make up at home and just a very less when i go out.




What about u, what do use every day?
If u answer it on ur blog let me know ( im curious :D)

A good Muslim?

Iam pregnant now about 32 week which means only about 18 weeks to go. Time to get nervous and finish all the little details :)
Now i get email every week which tell me about the development about my baby and what coiuld be going on with me. Its really intresting to know how much ur baby might weight and whats the newest development.
Now this week the mail told me things like the babys weight is supposed to be around 4 Pound and it is about 17 inches long (ca. 43cm..sounds huuugeeee).
Something else they said was really surprising me as i didnt feel that its like that.
They said: Your baby sleeps approximately 90 to 95 percent of the day now
My little one is sometimes very active for 1 or 2 days and than again lazy for the same time period.
But he is always awake and kicking at the prayer time, which make me wonder if all babys do that and we just dont recognize? Or is it a good sign that he will be a good muslim?
Ill just stay with the 2nd thought and hope its a good sign that he will be a good muslim, inshallah.
I missed my doctors appointment last weekend, so i dont really know how much weight i gained til now and whats new. But iam sure everything is ok as i feel better than before and im taking a lot of rest.
Actually i dont wanna know how much weight i gained :)
Im sure it will be 2 much as i cant stay away from sweets these days.
But i really start to miss doing sports, so i still got the hope that all that extra weight wont stay long after giving birth, inshallah.
My sister in law needed about 3 months to get back in shape after having her 2nd daughter and she didnt do any kind of sports.
But i know myself, i gain weight easily and have 2 work hard to loose it. I got that from my mummy as my dad can eat what he wants without gaining weight, lucky him.


Plzzzzz answer my Poll up there in the right Corner :)
Id like to know what u think of the Name Fares. Since iam not arabic and i have no Idea about this Names id like to know if u think it sounds good or bad and if its a good Name to choose?


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Who is scared of spiders?

Iam scared to death of spiders
I know theres no reason to be scared of them, most of them arent dangerous and they are probably more scared of me than iam of them.
But still when i seea big spider on the wall i just wanna run away and wait til my husband removes it.
These days there are a lot of spiders coming into our apartment, i guess they are hiding from the heat that is outside. Alhamdulillah they are still small spiders, though they still look scary.
But i can remove them by myself.
If they were bigger that would be a problem, cause than i would need 2 wait for my husband to do it and hes not much home these days :S
About 2 weeks ago we had a dung beetle in the house and it scared me like hell.
First i just heard a noise under the bed and thought its a mouse, but i couldnt see anything under the bed. Some min later i saw the beetle next to the bed and i directly went to get a glass to put it over it, so it cant run away.
At that time i didnt know its not dangerous as i never have seen one before and the size of it was really scary to me.
So i waited the 2 hours til my husband come home 2 throw it out of the house. Every 5 min i was checking if its still there and didnt manage to escape somehow.
Im not this scared of mouse or rats, cause i know they will run away from human.
Its tsrange actually that iam this scared of bugs ( especially spiders) cause i remember that when i was a kid i used to catch them and play with them.
Now i cant even watch pictures of spider without feeling very uncomfortable.
I planned on attaching a picture of a spider 2 this post, but i couldnt handle to watch spider pictures more than 2 min. It made me feel like they might be around me now :S

Are u scared of spiders, or u sont mind seing them in ur house?

baby shopping again

A few days ago i went to Carrefour (after begging my husband :D)
And these days they have so many cute Babyclothes, i could just buy all of them .
But i had 2 keep myself so i bought just 3 items.
I just love the baby clothes from Disney they are super cute :)
Inshallah i will buy another 3 of the babybodys soon and than i have nearly everything ill need for the baby. Only the bed is missing, but thats my husbands buisness 2 bring it.

The Clothes with the Bee atracted me since longer time and i finally decided 2 buy them.
I think they will be looking so cute on my little baby boy :)

I nearly bought a pink babybody 2 but i decided it would be bad if people ask me if our son is a girl :S
My husband though would have bought it bcz i told him i love the colour :)

Im a bit sad that my family in law doesnt show much of intrest but im sure it will change whenthe baby is born,inshallah :)
My mother on the other side seems to already go shopping for the baby :D
She always asks me what i still need and she will bring it when she comes to visit.

We also finally got pretty sure about a name alhamdulillah
Its 99% sure that his name will be Fares :)
My husband and me liked that name when we first got to know that iam pregnant.
And i think as it was our first thought, maybe it was the right one.
Well i think we will finally decide when we see him for the first time:)




This are the things i bought for him



Tuesday, April 20, 2010

My home town

Since some days i start to miss my home -city.
I just miss the park where i used to spend time since im a little kid, the beach where i went 2 swim and took long walks. I miss my family and i miss the shops where u can buy all those things that arent available here.

Still iam happy 2 live here.
My new life is here, my husband, my family in law and my baby will grow up here :)

So im gonna introduce my home-city to u.
Maybe if anyone of u ever gonna make holiday in germany, u can visit it as its a tourist city :)

The name of my home-city is Husum.
In my city are living about 20.000 people, so its not a big city at all, especially compared to cairo.
Still there are a lot of things to see if u visit it.
For me, the most amazing place there is the castle park.
The park is surrounding a castle, where wifes of some high danish lords went to live after their husband died. of course that was in the past and now there is a museum in the castle.
But thats not the highlight of the park.
Every year in spring the park turns violet from all the crocus that are growing everywhere.
A lot of people come to husum just to see this amazing event.
The crocus have been planted in the past by monks who used them to colour their robes.



Husum is directly beside the north sea so u can go to the sea every day if u please to.
There are also several special places where u can go swimming in the sea in the summer.
The only thiong that keep u from swimming is that the water isnt there all the time :)
We have tides, which means that every 6 hours the water goes and than again after 6 hours it comes back.
Even u cant swim when the water is gone there is the possibility to take a walk on the mudflap, but only with a proffesional, who knows where to go.
A lot of people get in trouble when they go out in the madflap alone and they wether get surprised by the water coming back or bcz the they tap into places where u can sinck into the mud. I once went about 100 m out in the mud and i sank into it to my hips and it was really hard to get out of it again :)




My city is famous for the poet theodor storm.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theodor_Storm
He wrote a lot of novells, like Immensee and Pole Poppenspeeler and also a lot of poems.
My favourite poem from him is about husum, in that one he decribes the city very accurate.


Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Sugar Rush

The last few days i didnt ate any sweets, but 2day i got so hungry on chocolate that i went to the shop n bought 2 Moro.

Moro is Nougat and Caramel coated with Cadburry Dairy Milk chocolate. One Moro has 206 kcal and 7.8 gr Fat Not healthy but tasty :)

I ate them both at once n i feel i shouldnt have.
That was just too much sugar after some days sugar abstinence.
Normally i eat a bit of chocolates ( or other sweets) every day, at least since iam pregnant.
Be4 i used to eat a small piece of chocolate every 2nd or 3rd day.
Iam just addicted 2 chocolate especially galaxy ( cookie crumble), Rittersport ( yogurt) and Toblerone. Since Rittersport yogurt isnt available in egypt and toblerone is hard 2 get i mostly take galaxy or something called pepita.
My husband though isnt found of chocolate, i guess its just a "woman thing" to be so found of chocolate. All females i know ( except my mother) love chocolate :)
I like anything to do with it like hot chocolate, chocolate milkshake, brownies or chocolate cake (hells temptation is the best!).

When i was a kid i ate only white chocolate and my mum had a hard time finding Easter-Bunnys in white chocolate :)
My taste changed when i became a teenager and since than i love milk chocolate.
I dont like dark chocolate at all, its just not sweet enough 4 me. Though i still like white chocolate i would always prefer milky one and here in egypt its hard 2 find a good quality white chocolate.

My fav chocolate cake
Hells Temptation



U need:
175 g dark Chocolate
250 g Butter
4 eggs
100 gr brown sugar
75 g white sugar
1 Teaspoons Butter vanilla flavoring
250 g Flour
100 g chocolate-powder
2 Teaspoons Backing-powder
1 Teaspoons Sodium
1 pinch Salt
350 g Sour cream
250 g dark chocolate
50 g Butter
200 ml cream


1. Melt the 175 gr dark chocolate in water-bath.

2. Meanwhile grease a spring form of 26 cm in diameter,put it at a cold place.

3. Now stir the melted chocolate with 250 gr butter.
Put the mix aside and heat the oven on 200 degree celsious.

4. Mix the flour, backing-powder, sodium and salt. Put it aside.

5. Now put the eggs ina bowl and add the brown sugar and the white sugar while stirring it.
Now add the chocolate-butter and mix it.

6. Add the flour mix and the sour cream and stir it all well.

7. Put the mix in the spring form and bake it in the oven for 35 - 40 min

8. After the backing let it cool in the spring form.

9. Meanwhile melt the left over chocolate (250 gr ) in water-bath. Gradually add the butter and
than the cream til its becomes a a uniform, smooth and nice shiny Cream. If its 2 soft let it cool 4 some min.

10. When the cake is cool down, get it out of the sprig form carefully.
Now cut the cake 1 time diagonally and fill it with some of the chocolate cream and put it back together.
Than rake the cake with the rest of the chocolate cream.

Best way 2 keep it is in the fridge, but get it out before eating so it will be not 2 cold.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Pakistan

After finishing highschool i had the unique chance to spend some time in Pakistan.
I was there for 1,5 months and i stayed with a nice family in a small city in the north of Pakistan. The time i spend there was in the winter, so alhamdulillah it wasnt so hot when i was there.
Pakistan (just as India) has a very bad image here in the arab countrys. In generell most arabs think indians/pakistanis are dirty and are all worshipping cows. Still a lot of woman here love to watch the Bollywood movies.
Sadly they dont know much about the healthy indian food, the colourfull culture and that a lot of people there are even muslims.

Pakistan had been indeed a part of India until the muslims of India decided to seperate from the rest of the country to build their own State called Pakistan.
Since than they had 2 fight for their right of independence and until today Pakistan and India have a huge Disput with each other.
India is most famous for their colourfull Movies produced by the Bollywood Industry.
Though this country has to offer much more than that.
One of the greatest offers India has, is the Food which is healthy and rich of Spices.
Since pkaistan has been a part of India the cuisine is almost the same, except for the fact that inPakistan the Pig meat is replaced by Cow meat since Muslims dont eat Pig meat.
Also the landscapes in both countrys are breath-taking.
No one would expect Hills covered with Snow in this counrtys which are mostly known to be hot and full of jungles.
Even this countrys are still 3rd World countrys, they have a lot to offer and they import many goods all around the world.
Once of the most imported goods from India and Pakistan are Spices such as Cardamom, Cinnamon, Safran and many more.
Also the famous curry has been found in India, though not by Indians but by British. They tryd to get the taste they got to know inIndia and so they invented this mixture of Spices called Curry.
If you ask for Curry in India they will propably offer you a complete Meal. Curry stands in India for a Meal, wether vegetables or Meat, cooked with Safran and in most cases with coconut milk.
Another thing that became very popular in the last years and that is original Indian, is Yoga.
Yoga has been, since centurys, a way to meditate and to train your muscles.
India and Pakistan ahve a lot to offer and a lot to see.
A travek there is certainly no waste and it will open your eyes to a world you wouldnt expect :)

I wish i could go again to Pakistan 2 meet all the nice and lovly people again, but i dont think that gonna happen.
Still it was a great experience that i dont wanna miss and iam glad 2 share some pics of this with u, i hope u enjoy it :)



The traditional Pakistani Dress for males


Lake lalasar



Sunday, April 11, 2010

Alexandria

On the 31.12.2008 i went from Cairo to Alexandria by Train.
Alhamdulillah i had a friend there who organised a flat for me.
Before i lived with my aupair family in Cairo/Gizeh but my time there was over and i wanted to stay a bit in egypt :)

The Travel to Alex wasnt 2 bad as i had a 1st class ticket for the train. The trains here arent so nice normally but i had luck i guess and they are way better than the microbusses.
(Microbusses are like the most dangerous thing after the tuck tuck here in egypt. They drive as fast as possible and have a lot of accidents)
When i reached in Alex my friend directly took me to the flat so i could sign the contract.
The flat had 2 bedrooms, was furnitured and located in miyami which is a good place 2 be as a foreigner. I didnt expect that the place where i live would be this good connected 2 malls and even internet cafes. Alhamdulillah it was really a blessing.

I stayed in Alex about 3 months, from which i stayed only 1 month in this flat and then moved 2 another one cause in the first one was no hot water and no washing machine which was quite annoying sometimes.Another thing that was really annoying me in that flat, and also in the next one was that i didnt get a key for the main door. That meant i ahd 2 wait til the doorman opend the door in the morning n i had 2 be home before he locked it up at night.
Alhamdulillah the doorman in my 2nd flat, mustafa, was opening quite early and locking up at night not 2 early. he was in generell a very nice person and so was his family ( though they didnt understood english at all :)

This flat wasnt as nice as the other one when it comes 2 the furniture but it had the necessary hot water and was simply safer for me.
In the time that i stayed there i spend a lot of time at the beach and i just got 2 love it.
It was winter time, so there havent been much people at the beach. Still there have been some male individuals who obviously love 2 pester females.
They just keep following u n trying 2 talk 2 u.
I made the mistake 2 answer them by saying "emshi" ( go away) or other stuff ( dont really remember) which didnt made them go away. Now i know that i shouldnt have answered them, my husband informed me that "any" answer will show them that u r intrested. You should just not answer and not look at them 2 show them u dont want any contact 2 them.

The rest of the time i used 2 study arabic, wether alone or with my friend who acted as my arabic teacher :)
In that time i learned 2 read and write arabic, which helps me now a lot.
Mostly we met in a cafe and studyd there. My favourite cafe is the Moonlight which is located in the beginning in the 45 Street in Miyami ( Maybe that helps any of u :D)
I really enjoyed this time without much responsebilitys. The money for the flat and my lifestyle came from my father.
( he still pays some money 2 me which he should have paid wheni was a kid)

After this time in Alex i longed to live in egypt again but for longer time and with a real job.
So when i left 2 germany i had the plan 2 come back and work here :)
Obviously plans dont always work the way u want, as iam here and but dont work.
But alhamdulillah i came to the place i wanted and even got married.
But i wish 2 visit alex again, as i miss the sea and the nice air there.
My family in law has a house there, so maybe we gonna go there some time :)
I hope so, and until than i can still watch the pics of my time in alex.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Are u serious?

Some time ago i set up a new email adress which i use only for real estate and work, since i dont like 2 mix up private and work all the time.
It already been usefull to me when i was writing 2 some clients of my husband about flats. I wrote them bcz they were german, so it was easier for them 2 communicate with me in german than with my husband in english :)

I also gave his mail on a site where i put an add, looking for a job which i can from home.
And 2day i got a really strange email and i guess that person got my email there.
First i thought its some kind of joke, but propably this person is serious about his words.In the first the mailsounds like i have written 2 him before so i tryd 2 remember, but as i went on reading, it became sure that i for sure havent written 2 this individual!
I cant believe people are like this at all, its just discusting.
But well, see urself. This is what he wrote me:



T M to me (decent_secret@hotmail.com)
Hi,
I'm visiting cairo now and saw ur AD; You sound a cool well educated female and I'm sure that time with you will be fun; I thought that I will be lucky if you accepted to spend PRIVATE time together where I enjoy you as a person and as a sexy female. I'm sure that you will have also good time with me and as partners will appreciate you financially in a very good and respected way.Please think about it and you can ask me anything you like and I promise to respect privacy and of course will do my best so you have fun time.

Take care

Well this person propably doesnt know iam a muslim, married and pregnant in the 8th month.
But why writing this 2 a female u dont know anyway?
Seriously, how can someone sent a mail like this 2 a add where a female is looking for a homejob?
If hes lookign for "this kinda things", than that is for sure the wrong place.
Not 2 mention thats its discusting anyway. If he has "needs" he could get married and didnt need 2 be this pevert, annoying woman he doesnt know with his mails.


Alhamdulillah i dont have anything 2 do with this kinda ppl n just have female friends, that makes life a lot easier :)
Am so happy 2 have all these wonderfull woman in my life, even they all live far away from me, i know they r trustfull muslimas onwho i always can depend.
Have a nice weekend everyone.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Trust and Forgiveness


There are less people that i trust completly, i actually can count them with one Hand.
There would be my Husband, my Mother, my Uncle and my best Friend.
These are the people that i trust because time showed that i can trust them and i think it would be sad if i didnt trust my mother or my husband, wouldnt it?
For me trust needs time 2 develope and i trust people when its proved that this certain person doesnt act against me. That doesnt mean i suspect bad things from people i get 2 know, but i wouldnt for example trust them 2 help me when iam really in trouble.

I trust my husband that he wont cheat on me, though it would be so easy for him.
He spends a lot of time out of he house and he passes by places where he easily could meet any nice girls. Im sure he sees a lot of beautifull girls when hes heading from one work-place 2 another.
But i trust he would never flirt with them or exchange numbers.
I know he chatted with a lot of girls before we got married and though he stoped 2 chat at all, he didnt delete them cause he didnt wanted 2 hide anything from me.
Being open and telling each other if anything happens strenghtens our trust 2 each other.

My husband on the other side has another theory about trust.
When he meet anyone new, he tests them and if they pass it, he trusts them.
He said that a person can always betray u, no matter how long u know them. But if u test them u can be more secure that they wont cheat u.
Not a bad theory i think, though i wouldnt adjust 2 it, as i dont like 2 test people.

But what happens if someone broke ur trust?
Can u forgive and trust them again or u wont trust them ever again.
Just some days ago i read something that made me think about this and i think its a very wise saying ( its in german,but i translated it)
" If u like a human, than u have 2 understand him. And not see his mistakes here, there and everywhere. Look at it with love and forgive. Are u are also not free of mistakes. Think about how many times in life people have forgiven u "
Its from my Uncle and hes completly right.
I dont stop trusting just because i got dissappointed once, though it may be hard, i would try 2 forgive and trust this person again.
Of course my trust would be less for some time and if his person breaks my trust again it might vanish. But i would forgive him and still trust, as i wish he would do the same when i did a mistake.


Sure this doesnt work if that certain person hurted u in purpose and in a very bad way. And if that person doesnt care just like he/she doesnt apologize. Than it would be hard 2 forgive and trust again. And maybe it would be even impossible.

Try ur best to forgive people who hurt u and to trust the people close to u.
It will not only make u seem a better person but it will also make u more happy and satisfied with life.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Searching a job..

When i got married i thought am not gonna work, i actually always wanted 2 be a housewife.
But i discovered that at the moment its not enough for me.
Im staying home all day and i have nothing 2 do except a little cooking and cleaning.
Inshallah when the baby is there and when we moved 2 our house ( pary that it will finish soooon)
i will have more 2 do so maybe ill not work.
But righ now im looking for any job which i can do from home.
Just anything which will keep me busy a few hours a day n which will give me some money for myself :)
Its not that easy though to find a job like that here in egypt.
Im searching online and i searched a lot of websites already and applyd for several jobs.
Most companys dont even answer :S
But i got one email 2day where igot invited for an interview 2morrow. The problem is i dont know if i can do that job from home or i have 2 do it in their office?
Its something about customer service.
I wish i will find anything fitting for me fast.

The other thing i struggle with is finding friends here.
Since i cant drive i need 2 find people whihc are living here next 2 me so i can meet them, without my husband driving me.
I was supposed 2 meet someone 2day in citystars but my husband cant drive me :S
So i added a lot of girls on facebook who are supposed 2 live here :)
Its definetly not easy 2 meet people if u dont go out a lot.
And wher ei live is nothing going on, its so boring here :S
There are just 2 cafes and no clubs wher ei could go, not even courses which i could attend.
All of that is in downtown and i just cant go there on my own, at least not when iam pregnant like this ( inshallah after brith i will earn 2 do it!)
So iam hoping, wishing, praying that fb will help me 2 get 2 know some nice grils from here, who i can meet and have some fun with :)

Note: I have 2 learn driving! HAVE TO!
Its annoying 2 depend on my husband 2 drive me where i wanna go and public transportationisnt really the best in here :(
( On the other side am scared the car will stop somewhere when i drive and ill be lost :S)

Monday, April 5, 2010

Life goes on..

Do u know when u feel like its over?
Like u cant go on?
Well life always goes on
At least thats my experience :)
I felt like that several times since i came 2 egypt but life always goes on
After bad times, good times come around, alhamdulillah.
I had many arguments with my husband, sometimes about stupid little things and sometimes about really important things.
And though sometimes i felt like its over n i have 2 leave, iam still here :)
Marriage is a lot harder than i thought, its a whole lot of work!

I know that arguments will happen again n that bad times may come around, but i pray that we will stay strong and stay 2gether, inshallah.
A big issue we had ( still have) is that i want 2 go out and he doesnt.
Its not like i wanna go out every day and 2 special places.
I just wanna go once or twice a week 2 a cafe near our house ( quite cheap, alhamdulillah)
Just 2 get out and not stay home all the time.
But my husband loves 2 stay home, hes a real couch potatoe :)
We both still need 2 work on ourselfs and work on our marriage, inshallah.

2day he accepted 2 go n buy some stuff from Abu Zekry ( a food shop)
so we went there and bought some food we needed aaannnndd
Chocolate for me :)
I found a new sweet 2 satisfy my sweets addiction
Its called PAPITA
and its a mix of chocolate, milk cream and cookie
Its really cheap with the price of 1.30 eg pound which is less than half euro!
(Galaxy coasts about 4 pound in same size)

Thats it :D


Sunday, April 4, 2010

An egyptian wedding

On Friday i attended my first egyptian marriage :)
It was really nice and the arrangements were great.
The One who married was the cousin of my husband, who is considered the most beautifull girl in the family :)
She looked great in her dress, mashallah
And i have 2 say egyptian weddings are much better than german ones. More entertaining and more fun.
The couple was dancing all the time. i dont know how they managed that, after all it was more than 5 hours of dancing for them :)
And they both seemed so happy, inshallah they will have a great life 2gether!

The Entrance with the guest book

The room where the wedding took place


The top of the room


Friday, April 2, 2010

Marriage

#CASE 1

Getting married is like going to a restaurant with friends. You order what you want, then when you see what the other fellow has, you wish you had ordered that.


#CASE 2

At the cocktail party, one woman said to another, "Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger??" The other replied, "Yes, I am. I married the wrong man."


#CASE 3

Before a man is married, he is incomplete. Then when he is married, he is finished.


#CASE 4

Marriage is an institution in which a man losses his bachelor's degree and the woman gets her master's status.


#CASE 5

A little boy asked his father, "Daddy, how much does it cost to get married??" And the father replied, "I don't know son, I'm

still paying for it."


#CASE 6

Young son : "Is it true, Dad, I heard that in some parts of Africa, a man doesn't know his wife until he marries her?"

Dad : "That happens in most countries son."


#CASE 7

Then there was a man who said, "I never knew what real happiness was until I got married, and then it was too late."



#CASE 8

A happy marriage is a matter of give and take; the husband gives and the wife takes


#CASE 9

When a newly married man looks happy, we know why. But when a ten-year married man looks happy, we wonder why. Affair ?


#CASE 10

In the first year of marriage, the man speaks and the woman listens. In the second year, the woman speaks and the man listens. In the third year, they both speak and the neighbors listen.


#CASE 11

After a quarrel, a wife said to her husband, "You know, I was a fool when I married you." And the Husband replied, "Yes, dear, but I was in love and didn't notice it."


#CASE 12

A man inserted an 'ad' in the classified : "Wife wanted". The next day, he received hundreds letters. They all said the same thing "You can have mine."


#CASE 13

When a man opens the door of his car for his wife, you can be sure of one thing : either the car is new or his wife is new.


#CASE 14

A woman was telling her friend : "It is I who made my husband a millionaire."

"And what was he before you married him?" the friend asked. The woman replied, "A Billionaire."



True or Not ?

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

wahshteny awi ya ummi ( i miss u so much my mother)

Ya mama i miss u so much 2day

I wish i could just sit with u and talk 2 u about anything like we used 2 do.
I wish i could tell u about all my problems and get a hug from u. I wanna tell u all the things i cant tell u bcz i dont want u 2 worry about me. I need ur advice ya mama. What would u do if u were in my place?
I feel lonly without u, bcz u r the only person in this world who loves me unconditional!

I know we havent been this close always and u dont know how happy iam that we are able 2 hug each other now and talk like friends, something we couldnt do when i was younger.
Its so sad that we are so far from each other just now when our connection became better n better.
I know i havent been a good daughter always, i made u so much problems when i was a teenager and i mad ur life so hard. Im truly sorry for it and i wish i could make it up 2 u. Now i will be a mother myself soon, i just wish u were here with me and help me with all those little things that u know better than me.

Its breaking my heart that i cant be near u and take care of u, give u that little presents i used 2 bring u and cook for u. U dont know how hard it was for me 2 leave when i see u still struggle with ur injury. I swear if u were here i would do anything 2 make life easier for u, just as tryd when i was there after ur accident.
I just want u 2 be as happy as possible, and i wish u wil be happy even iam far from u.
I wish for u that u will find a lot of new people that u can spend ur time with, that u find something that makes u really happy, maybe find love.
U deserve it more than anyone else that i know, bcz u always give and do everything for the people around u while never asking for anything back.
I truly dont know a person that is as strong and loving as u are.

Bahbek Mama
I love u...Ich hab dich lieb mama





Monday, March 29, 2010

A Walk to remember..

Since i decided to be more active and not sit in the house all day, depending on my husband, i feel much better.
2day i took a walk 2 discover my neighbourhood.
The most intresting thing for me are the street cats :D
I love them and i wish i could just sit down and pet them. But as am pregnant i stay a bit away from them. When iam not pregnant anymore i will for sure do it again, though i would only do it if no one see me cause the egyptian don t understand if u r nice 2 street cats.
While i was walking i passed by some shops n decided 2 by onion.
Wrong decision!
The guy who sold the vegetables was very local and i discovered my arabic isnt good enough 2 understand him :S
I told him " ayza wahid kilo basil" ( i want 1 kilo onion)
What i forgot is that onion means basal n not basil, so he didnt understood me until i showed him what i wanted. He asked me if iam syrian cause i didnt understood most of what he said :D
Actually i felt really embarrased that i wasnt able 2 communicate with him :(
When i lived in alex i was able 2 buy vegetables and the shopkeeper understood me always. But he wasnt that local i guess.
Conclusion: Study more arabic..especially the pronounciation!
Alhamdulillah buying some chipsy in another shop went well and i understood the shopkeeper. But that wasnt hard anyway as i just asked "bekam?" ( how much does it coast)
and his answer "setta wo noss" ( 6,5) wasnt hard 2 understand either, alhamdulillah :)


A bit blurry but the way he ( or she?) is looking me was just worth a pic





Sunday, March 28, 2010

Dogs are haram..

But that doesnt mean we can treat them bad!
There is even a hadith which states a woman ( prostitute) who gave water 2 a thirsty dog wnet 2 heaven for her deed. And a woman who mistrested a cat went 2 hell!

We had a dog at my in laws home.
She was there for security and 2 keep the rats away.
Now some time ago she got babys, but sadly only 2 of 5 survived :(
I blame my husbands brother as he was to take care of them but he didnt really care!
The dog was staying on the roof which was like a huge terasse and she could go down into the garden at any time she liked. The little ones stayed at the roof as they were 2 small 2 go down the stairs.

But now someone seemed 2 have poisend them :(
My husbands brother called us some days ago that the dogs died and they were throwing up blood before that :(
I dont get why he didnt get the vet who is having his place not far from the house.
Arent the dogs worth to get help from us?
I know that if we have been there my husband would have done anything 2 save them, as he loved that dog so much.
We actually wanted 2 take one of the babys to our place but we dont have so much place and my husband had doubts so we didnt do it.
I wish we had, cause it would be still alive :(


These are some pictures of them, dont they look so sweet and innocent?
How could anyone harm them???




Strange habbits?

Do u have any strange habbits?
Strange annoying or just different habbits?
I actually figured out that i got a few of them :D

Like i HAVE to clean the diashes ( and everything else) right after eating. I cant let them stand around, even if its just for a short time. It just makes me feel uncomfortable when they stand there in the kicthen and i have to think how hard it will be to clean them later.

Another habbit that has 2 do with food 2, is that i cant let any pot open ( with food inside of course).
I always have 2 cover them. Though there are no bugs in my house( alhamdulillah) i still feel anything could fal into the food if i leave it uncovered.
And it absolutly drives me crazy when my husband eats from it and than leave them uncovered *grrr*

I tend 2 write lists for everything. Absolutly everything :)
I write lists for shopping, for my daily dutys, for my goals, for things we will need in the future, for some money calculations ( which is unnecessary),...
I just love 2 sort things and writingit down help me with that.
My husband thinks thats bcz iam german..well might be :D

Iam sure there is more but i just cant think of more now, maybe i should ask my husband :)

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Mistress of Spices - Movie

MBC Persia was shwoing the movie mistress of spices last night, though i couldnt see the whole movie cause it was simply 2 late n i needed to sleep (about 3 am)i liked it. ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PWps7RYW2m8 ) Beware this movie has some scenes which we muslims not supposed 2 watch so just ignore them and close ur eyes :)
I have been reading the book before which is from my all time favourite writer Chitra Banerjee Divakaruni. Its not my favourite book from her but still a good one.
Like usually the book is better than the movie but the movie wasnt so bad and it made me wanna go 2 any spices Bazar 2 spend a little fortune on spices :)
(Inshallah i will go 2 a spices shop soon 2 get some spices i havent been able 2 get here til now like mustard seeds).
I have been in pakistan before and ever since i love to cook with indian spices, they just have such a richness of spices which make cooking real fun.
My husband uses 2 say he hates indian food ( justr like he dislikes india), but when i cook it for him he liked the food. Propably cause i never tell him that its inidan food ;)
Something i do regulary and which i really adore is indian chai.
Here in Egypt chai is simply black tea, but in india and pakistan chai has another meaning, its black tea with milk and spices and its really lovly.
When i was on diet before this was my swet treat every day :D
Now here is how 2 do it:

1. Boil some water and add black tea( not the tea bags if possibl). If u are very unsure about the amount than just atke 1 cup of water.
When it boils and the tea has a nice dark colour than add some milk.
The colour should be light brown after ading the milk, so dont add 2 much or 2 less.
The colour should be like in the picture below.



2. Now crash some cardamom seeds ( i take mostly 2 or 3) and add them to the tea.
Add some cinnamon powder ( or fresh cinnamon stick) and a tiny peace of ginger ( fresh or dryd)

3. Now let the mix cook for some time, when it boils turn the heat low and let it simmer for a little bit (maybe 2 min, this isnt necessary but maked the taste much better)

4. Add sugar and than sieve it into a cup.
And enjoy it :)

Now some about the lovly spices used in this drink.
Lets start with cinnamon, which we all know and love in our sweets.
And that the health benefits:

Cinnamon has been reported to have remarkable pharmacological effects in the treatment of Type 2 diabetes mellitus and insulin resistance.
Cinnamon has traditionally been used to treat toothache and fight bad breath and its regular use is believed to stave off common cold and aid digestion.



Cardamom
I just adore this spice, its one of my favourite and i love it in coffee, sweets and chai of course.
Health benefits:

Its used to treat infections in teeth and gums, to prevent and treat throat troubles, congestion of the lungs and pulmonary tuberculosis, inflammation of eyelids and also digestive disorders. It also is used to break up kidney stones and gall stones, and was reportedly used as an antidote for both snake and scorpion venom.



Ginger
I normally use this one i main dishes, in the beginning i didnt like dthe taste, but i got used 2 it and now i like it :)
health benefits:
Ginger has been found effective in multiple studies for treating nausea caused by seasickness, morning sickness and chemotherapy.
And Ginger may have blood thinning and cholesterol lowering properties that may make it useful for treating heart disease.
In Arabic, ginger is called zanjabil and in some parts of the Middle East ginger powder is used as a spice for coffee ( not in my coffee though).




Friday, March 26, 2010

My first driving lesson

2day i had my very first driving lesson (with 22 years *shame*)
Actually my husband teached me and i wasnt that bad at all :)
I think i did pretty well cause i needed only about 15 min 2 learn how 2 start the car and how 2 drive in the 2nd and 3rd gear.
It was kinda scary though cause it was after maghrib so it was dark, but alhamdulillah the place we were at was empty and there was only 1 more car which was a young guy learning 2 drive by his father, and he did better than me :S (I keep telling myself it wasnt his first time!)
I didnt thought i would handle driving so well, but yeah it was just driving on a safe place, am still scared from the street with all those crazy egyptian driver.
Inshallah i can learn soon 2 park and 2 drive on the street so i can use the car when my husband is at work and i can go shopping on my own *yeah*


2 all of u Jummah mubarak :)

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Being pregnant

Iam now pregnant 28 weeks and its getting really annoying :)
Not that i dont love my baby and iam happy 2 have him but the side effects are really making me tired.
Recently my stomach got so big, its scary :S
I just avoid watching myself in the mirror as i see myself just looking fat n not atractive at all.
Im dreaming about the time when i can again do sports
go running
go skating
go riding
walk a long time without panting :)
sleep as i like without someone kicking me if he doesnt like the position :)
when i dont have this cravings anymore ( sugar,sugar,sugar..i want it all the time)

I simple miss 2 see myself as a woman and to wear nice clothes.
When i see those lovly clthes i was able 2 wear be4 the pregnancy i could cry :S
But inshallah i will work hard after it 2 get into them again.
And i cant wait 2 hold my baby in my arms :)



2 all the mothers out there: How much weigth did u gain in pregnancy?

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Fire... :S

I wanted 2 post some more on egypt but im not really in the mood right now.
Just some min ago i was sitting withmy husband on the bed when we both smelled something burning. My hubsnad was even saying it might be a bruning machine somewhere.
But when i watched out of the window i could see what it was..
Right next 2 us is a free place where someone started 2 build a house but obviously run out of money so he let the place as it is.
I could already see the fire over he wall ( and the wall is 2 metre high!)
My husband ran outside right away and informed our landlord ( who is living above us).
Alhamdulillah they could stop the fire 2gether with some neighbours.
But it really scared me like hell :S
What if we slept at the time? The fire could have taken over very soon and harm us ( or even kill us, audhubillahi mina shaytan nirageem)

I believe that Allah wanted 2 show us that we can die any time, no one is secure of this!
Only 2 months ago there was a fire in the house of my in laws and i dont get what it is that we have so much 2 do with fire these days?
I mean in all my life i never had anything 2 do with this kinda fire. I didnt even saw a big fire in my Life.
And now in 2 months im in contact with it 2 times. Should i worry now? :S

Ya Rab protect us all from the bad things and give us the chance 2 be better muslims before we die!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Some pics 2 the post

Before i go i decided 2 post some pics of masr, i hope u enjoy it :)






Some thoughts on Egypt - Part 1

Since most people who read my Blog arent egyptians, i thought u might be intrested in the real Egypt :)
I realised fast that living in Egypt shows u different sides of egypt than if u only visit it. Same for the case if ur a muslim or not, its just a big difference.

When i first came here in september 2008 i directly had 2 be very independent and find out things by myself. Fortunatly people didnt always recognize am not egyptian as i dress just like them and as long as i dont speak they mostly think iam egyptian and so they treat me like that.

One thing i found out very very fast is that woman arent supposed 2 be outside at night alone. Now i dont mean a time like 2 am cause that wouldnt be so good elsewhere 2 ( though it wouldnt be so dangerous).
But its better not 2 go out without a male after about 10pm. After 12am its really getting strange if u are out without a male and believe me u wont feel so comfortable.
There are some places where this rules are not working like in citystars ( a big mall in nasr city).
But in generell i would advice u 2 avoid going out after 10pm alone.
I dared 2 go stay out until 12 am one night in alexandria cause i was waiting for a friend of me and this friend just came late bcz of transportation. And i felt like all males watching me very strange. Alhamdulillah iam a muslim and i was wearing hijab and abaya and iam sure this kept the guys from harassing me.
Its the culture here that a woman that hangs out on the street alone at that time cant be a good one, bcz the good girls stay home with their familys or go out with their husbands. So if u are out alone its shows u r not protected and maybe u even looking 2 meet guys..

Another thing that doesnt really exist in europe ( at least in germany) are cafes only for males. Mostly they are really simple shops where they just serve coffee and tea (and shisha of course).They are never fancy shops with nice decoration and special drinks, its just a simple place where the man meet and drink tea together.
If u as a woman go and sit there they will watch u in a strange way :)
I know it bcz i did it out of not knowing. But actually i wasnt alone, my arabic teacher took me there and later he told me that this cafe normally is just 4 males and that we gonna study in another cafe next time ( he was just 20 and obviously hadnt experience about cafes).
Now since i married i realise it more than before how much egyptians care for this.
Like if we go 2 a cafe and there are sitting only males, than my husband insists 2 go 2 another cafe. Not if its a cafe like cilentro, beanos or any cafe like that.
But im talking about the local ones, where u pay 2 pund for a tea and u mostly sit outside on wooden chairs :)
So if u plan 2 go out with girls only choose a cafe where already girls are sitting and better avoid 2 much empty cafes cause it might be a really bad one.

Ill think of more later as iam going 2 drink qahwa with my husband now :)